YEAR 2006

year 2007..the year that soon will go into history as we will step into 2008. i have nothing better to do now..so i thought of writing about this year..the year was a good one..i learnt a lot of important lessons this year. some were sugar coated some hard hitting..but its ok..thats life i guess. the most difficult task in life is to understand what you want and why you want it..so that when people ask you , they can be answered and satisfied. i think this year helped me understand what i really wanted to do..i tried to tie up a lot of lose ends and was successful at some. but on the lighter side..i watched a lot of good movies..ate a lot of good food..discovered new books and music.so the year may come to an end but not life..my life is moving. no one knows the future but atleast m thankful to god that he has given me all i have ever wanted..family, friends, my optimism and desire to explore the unknown..so i am happy. ofcors i can do with a few things..but thats the way life is..atleast its not stagnant.i am very excited abt the coming year..lets c... :)

Saawariya...beloved.

Today finally i watched saawariya..the film by sanjay leela bhansali! i must say that that i was quite disappointed when i had heard about the negative reviews about it on tv. but i still knew and felt that i would like this movie..what i didnt know was how much i was going to love this film! trust me...i have never seen a more beautiful film than this..not only is the story beautiful...but every scene dialogue song is beautiful. when u watch this movie u feel as if a beautiful innocent story has been presented to u gift wrapped in poetry and painting. the sets lighting background score...everything was amazing. i truly madly deeply loved it. ofcors many may complaint abt the numerous songs but when scenes r so beautiful and musical..songs become unavoidable. there was never a moment i felt bored. and the character of ranbir kapoor was such a fresh change from all the latest manly heroes. after a long time i saw a man ....selfless to the extreme capability..who only knows how to spread love. be it the prostitutes or the old landlady...he was the friend philosopher and guide to all of them. but the irnoy of fate as it is.. love was the only dream that he hd dreamt for all and dared for himself which didnt come true. the nascent colours of love were washed away when the character was sonam was discoverd to be in love with salman khan. the story had a sad ending but maybe a practical one..sonam decided to unite with salman who had kept his promise of returning to her...and poor dear ranbir managed to scrape whatever little affection had come his way..and he was seen walking away alone...probably back to his waiting landlady...maybe to share the pain of letting love go..or maybe to share the glory of watching his love find her way..i do not know ..but i loved the film..loved it..loved it....loved it..it truly stuck like glue to the real meaning of its name..saawariya..beloved.

how i hate my blog colour now! pink!!!!! arrrrghhhh!!!! how revolting! its too much of a sweet n positive colour! my house is to be renovated so my mom hd asked me sme time back to decide for a colour for my bedroom! there was no 2 ways abt it...it wud be PINK!!! but now i feel...no way! i just feel so angry with this colour now..the site of pink makes me angry..!!!!! i told my mom abt it n she dismissed it as my pre exam tantrum! she is so used to it now! well i really dont agree with the timing of our exams!!!! did they have to keep the dates at this time just when the sky was at it best sky blue shade! i disagree!!!! and to add to my anger..the best of films the so called blockbusters r being releases every now n then! how much i hate to plan to squeeze out time for them! only for the exams..in my need to get to the nest sem! and the added tension ...the cut off monster 60%.. i dont understand the fact that wil the percentage change things from what i know to what i dont know!..i disagree! how i c my fellow classmates buried in the heaps of books n scribbling reference..rightfully so! but y do i always find it boring n sad thing to do! n i hate it the most when i am made to do it..by noone but my bloody conscience! neway the colour of my room will be orange...i love orange..

yayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhhhhh finally reliefffffffff!!!!!!!!!!!! m so happy now! happy and relieved!!!! the reason being..we had n exam today and it got cancelled due to rain...!!!!!!!!yippie!!!!!! for the past couple of days i was really not keeping well and i didnt even study properly..so i was quite worried as in what will i write!!!!!....today in the morning when i woke up i called up a few frnds and asked them whether the exam got cancelled or not!!!! all of them said that the exam will be taken by hook or by crook!!! even when i called sir even he was sure that exam wud be taken...!!!!!!!!! it was raining so hard...n my mom was asking me not to go!! but nothing was in my hands u c!!! so instead of studying i was busy calling everyone up and asking abt the exam...hhahaha!!!!....whatever!..then just as i was about to leave my home..my frnd called me n said.....guess what!!!!!!! no exam today.....it hs bin postponed!!!!!!!!!!!!.....yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!! no exam no exam no exam......!!!! after finishing this i will go off to sleeppp!!!!!!!...oh its finished...gotta go!!!!!!!

bong connection.....is it?

Aahhhhh bong connection...the latest movie coming from Anjan Dutta...a crossover movie with porombroto...raima sen..piya and shayan munshi playing the main characters...a story mainly concentrating on porom n shayan...as the former leaves kolkata for his job in houston and the latter setting his foot in kolkata..for his musical career since kolkata is where his music belongs..well good enough!...now the major distinction between kolkata n houston....since the traditional kolkata had to be shown..mainly the old fading large houses of north bengal was chosen as the house where shayan comes to stay with his family..and oh yes the pickles left on the terrace..the bengali touch ofcors..and 'shingaras' and 'luchi' for breakfast..the 'typical' middle aged bong husband played my saswata...is also included..dunno y thou! maybe to show the disparity between shayan n him...could be..well enuf! and houston...well the land of thugs gays and discomfort..thats what i felt..porom was never comfortable there...neway back in kolkata next comes in raima sen..well she is the love interest of porom who is apparently waiting for him to return and basically do smething abt their relationship...only a small part we were allowed to see in the scene shot in flury's ofcors...the new age couple..breakfast at tiffanys..oops i mean flurys! duh-uh!!....neway coming back to shayan n raima..they strike n odd friendship..they sang a few songs..nothing romantic between them thruout the movie..dunno y shayan was asking her to confess that she did feel for him on their way back to airport...when shayan was abt to leave for abroad!!..since he cudnt take the narrow mindedness of his family..of the people of kolkata who were more interested in synthesizer n saxophone...while he wanted to stick to the rabindrasangeet n baaul songs!!!! is that y he went to shantiniketan n sang n odd remix version of 'pagla hawa' by bikram ghosh??..there was no baul in it?? oh well there were two baul dancers..oh they were dancing...hence their involvement ofcors!!...but i have to say...shayans first song at someplace else was nice enough...sung by shaan ofcors..dunno y the hindi lyrics..well his life his song...who am I!!! but shayan's acting was good enuf..the long speech to his jethu in broken bengali was short and to the point..and whatever he wanted to say as a true bengali boy was alright!!....and now porombroto...well i didnt get his story track entirely..from what i understood..he went to houston..befriended a bangladeshi taxi driver who had a good range of girlfriends in houston to keep him busy and a daughter back home..and that he died towards the end of the movie..was a nice chap thou..!! and porom well...he was interested in pia...wanted a lot from her..held himself back..the true bengali boy yet again..and then freaked her parents out when they were thinking of him as their daughter's groom...oops! well the nri bengalis were also quite happy in their small kolkata..sitting sme 1000 miles away from kolkata on carpets and ac rooms and singing bangali songs over a plate of ilish maach and bhaat n maach bhaja...ohh how sweet!!!...the essence of being a bengali..smewhere stuck in the menu!! ahem...well theres nothing much in porombroto's story..his bong connection got lost smewhere in beer and bed!!!...neway...all was not bad in the movie...the songs were quite nice..thou odd timing i must say...but the end of the movie was quite practical...each going to where they belonged...BUT..the way shayan's exit was compensated with porom's entry..the audience started laughing...but plz it wasnt funny at all!!!! IN YOUR FACE HUMOR...i say! neway...the movie ended...but inspite of my review..i wud like to add...maybe this movie is the greatest movie of all times..but as n audience i failed to connect to this movie..n m a bong?! so well there was no bong connection for me at all....!!!!!! A HUGE LET DOWN!....

The sound of silence

Have u ever heard the sound of silence..the minute sound when the tears trickle down the cheeks and fall on the ground..the sound of a heart breaking..the sound of the loneliness when the tired eyes hug each other to seep into oblivion?? Is there any sound to the rain..when it pricks and kisses our skin? any sound when the autumn leaves fall on the ground..similarly is there any sound to the birth of new leaves who paint the town green..any sound when our yellow days bid us goodbye and the silver moon comes to spend the night with us??..any sound to a star falling?..a silent wish??...no sound at all. Can a thought ever be heard.. can breeze ever speak.. do the flowers say something when they bloom...i could never hear. Is there any sound when the eyes of two lovers speak? any sound when love first creeps into the heart like the early morning sunshine in our room...any sound to touch..when two souls unite?? or when vermilion is applied by a married woman??...in the same way a child grows inside the mother's womb in silence...There is no sound when we breathe in life..and no sound when we breathe our last..

we all think feel and live in silence..all our emotions are drenched in silence..only the expression can be vocal..never the emotions. there is no sound to silence but we all know what it is..it is a familiar sound..almost like when a dark room seems welcoming..silence is always welcoming..we can never feel it on our fingertips..can never savour its taste..but we all live with it..we all are souls of silence.

GOOD OR BAD???

Hey all...another blog..or rather m writing to pacify my mind..since this is my new diary m giving my old diary a day off!..well as we can c the title reads..good or bad..umm well this title coz..i always get confused over this question itself...is it GOOD or BAD!!..i mean it varies from person to clothes to what not!!!!....what may appear to be good may be bad..and in the same manner what seems to be bad n dark...might actually hv smething good n meaningful in it!!!! I mean personally speaking i am just sick of fake diabetic smiles and dialogues from people!...cant we all be more genuine...u know what i mean?!...cant people be just what they r..do they always have one intention or the other for talking and mixing with the other people...!!! if we take a look around ourselves the world is full of wannabes n hypocrites....i mean u snap ur finger and a person is good to u n snap..he or she is glaring at u...i mean whats wrong!..and amidst all this facade i fail to realise on time....whts good n whts bad..n the after effect is ...after a long period of time i realise....oh shit...what crap..y didnt i see this coming?...isnt this the same case with all of us..!!! to top it all theres this nagging voice telling me that...what is virtual and what is real??? theres this constant shift of personalities between the two mediums...between real and virtual..say in reality people are very cold and distant...but they r the kings of virtual world...smart witty cool and warm...but i know its not real??..so the same question again...whts good n whts bad..shud i see the reality and embrace the bad ...coz its the truth probably...or shud i just play along and believe in virtual facades of people..??? If there is nething like 'too good to be true' when it comes to people...lets just say...been there done that!!.....

isnt that a sad situation...?? i think it is..!! neway thts it for now.

TAGGED........YAYYYY!!!!!!!!!

Saw this 'tagged' thing on my friends blog...found it quite interesting...was hoping for smeone to tag me n guess what my friend just tagged me..!! so now i have to write down 8 things abt myself...so lets get started..!!!

1. I love ANALYSING...!!! its n all time job for me...i analyse films, paintings,food, people, behaviour, clothes, books, songs...n well even the society!!!

2. I am extremely IMAGINATIVE. I mean when i imagine or m in a mood of imagining there r no boundaries whatsoever...i dont necessarily engage in wishful thinking or aimless day dreaming..its just that i disconnect myself from everyone around me n imagine smething totally different..for example the view from the terrace of my best friends house is just amazing...u can c the whole of kolkata n all...so when i go up there we both usually start imagining that ....ok that bridge is in new york and that tall building in london...etc etc!! its quite fun!

3. I hate people who wear bad shoes....oops!

4. I am a hyper sensitive person n smetimes i get hyper for no rhyme or reason!!! n afterwards when i do understand my problem i feel extremely stupid!

5. I m generally attracted towards people who hv a good sense of humour...i just love people who can make others laugh..:)

6. I cant stand wannabes and psychos...whenever i sense their presence i start having n allergic reaction.....its true...i feel sick!

7. I love kids..i simply adore them.

8. I am a very confident person from within n i know myself inside out so most of times m quite sure of what i wanna do...i dont like to take tension!...

well thats it i guess...8 things abt myself...!!!

what the hell!!

M soooo pissed off with this blog thing...never in my life hv i felt this tupid in my life..i dont know how to keep a picture...how to add links..just learnt how to comment..ahem!! well its quite irritating u c..n this is my first time...i hv so many ideas n just no way to put them to use..god knows when i will get aquainted with this thing!...my day hd been so great...i said what i had to say n i did the things that needed to be done..!!! quite a day..!!!...its turning out to be quite boring now..well ending here..more interesting stuffs coming up only if i knew the things here.....humph!...bear with me friends!!

The thing called blogging?

my first real blog...this is my 3rd attempt..dunno if i shud i be sayng that or not..!! oops just did that!! i just want to write smething thats not gonna be stupid...i mean i hv read the blogs my frnds write..n i hv nothing of that sort on my mind..i just liked the idea on an online diary sort of a thing...where i can write what i feel.thou it can be read by people..wanted and unwanted as well...but doesnt matter much!...so i dont really know what i shud be writing..n as i can see ..m just blabbering!!..my mind is just blank right now..maybe coz of the heat..just came back from colg. it was a hectic day...all the professors on time with their long long list of reference books..n even longer list of topics to be covered this semester!!..n u must be knowing..my A CLASS result last sem...a sparkling 53% is all i could manage!! well this sem will hv to pull my socks up n do the needful. needful as in study n just be myself..last sem was a total LOSER year for me!! well nothing much happened today..just that i saw a really cute guy in JU..n was happy about the fact..that atleast ONE!..hahah! JU NEEDS CLEAN CUTE GUYS!! there u go i said it! [ well personal blog ta faida!]...umm cant think of nething..until the next time..tara!

sugar cube opens her 1st blog to day....:))