Sunday, May 23, 2010
Me and Mao for the past five days, great man....he hs done a lottttttttttttttt of things in his lifetime...but not great if you hv to study him for an exam....he has done tooooooo many things!!!! :((((( Kalke exam hole ami baachi!!! M sick of china!!!!!!!!!!! : xxxxxxx And there is no point is studying like this! Sigh! Break is over... Mao calling! :|
Friday, May 21, 2010
I was searching for a thing when I suddenly bumped into my old diaries. Very old diaries. Earlier I had never taken the opportunity to go through them but today I felt like it. As I was going through some of the things I had written, I was struck by the fact that I have grown up so much!! I couldn't believe some of the things I had written there. I was SO naive! Reading them now almost feels like reading a diary of a girl I used to know. I also realised that the girl has transformed and suddenly remembered what a professor had said about transformation. That, whenever transformation takes place, a change occurs, but the 'form' remains. It is so true. I mean as much as there were things that have no possibility of happening now, there were some things which continue even to this day. But what was ok many years ago is not OK today. So that was a reality check. Suddenly the perspective that I was lacking for some days was back on track. I guess, sometimes it is useful to take a breather, to turn back and measure the length of the journey so far. It is SO worth it!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Is it true that when you wish for something with all your heart it comes true?
Is there anyone in the world who enjoys being powerless?
Is there anything called destiny?
Who decides what is right and what is wrong?
Why is hope the strongest emotion yet too much of it makes one weak?
When will I step out of my current state of mind?
What happens to me when it rains?
I hope [again] that one day, I will have the answers to all these questions and will write elaborate posts on them. WOW! That will be some day!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
30.4.2010, our last day at college ( university). A day that will stay with me forever. Jadavpur University... a witness to my life for 5 long years, all my special moments, both happy and sad, somehow absorbed in the walls, stairs, chairs and everything that makes up Jadavpur University what it is. See... I am getting emotional now! When will I ever be able to detach my emotions as a writer?! Anyway, my relationship with my college has been the most 'complete' relationship of my life. I joined it due to parental pressure, hated it for a pretty long time, then the hatred took a more subdued form of dislike, eventually giving way to a likeness and finally love. An unconditional love with the place because it has given me so much. It was a much needed preparatory stage before my actual 'tough' life begins. Anyway, love the place, yes, but I believe the relationship is complete since I have also managed to 'let go' of the place, and kept all the memories, good, bad and ugly, safe with me. I have given 5yrs of my life to this institution and was paid back by a lot more. A LOT MORE. :)
ps: I wish I could do justice to my feelings, coz when I write about myself, I suck!