Found in a friend's blog

I am: someone, whom u either know or dont know.

I think: I have the lethal combination of super sensitivity with utter lack of expression

I know: my wants and needs, and the difference between them.

I have: beautiful dreams

I wish: to be expressive and understood inspite of it

I hate: being taken for granted

I miss: rain

I fear: loneliness

I hear: what u say, and what u want to say

I smell: of all the products i use

I crave: for depth in people

I search: for a connection between the world i see and the world that is

I wonder: about my future

I would be in 10 yrs: definitely not looking for love~

I regret: nothing really [ after thinking hard for 5 mins ]

I love: with devotion

I ache: silently

I am not: frivolous

I believe: in the power of love

I sing: sometimes

I cry: alone

I fight: when i care

I win: to lose

I lose: to win

I never: act

I always: try

I confuse: mind with heart

I listen: to my heart

I can usually be found: smiling

I am scared of: never falling in love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need: a lil time

I am happy about: my decisions in life

I imagine: of a happy world

keys to imagination

Sometimes I wish if I cud control my imagination..just manipulate it and make it work for me or do things that are 'right'. I get these weird 'strokes' of imagination out of the blue. I am like everyone else, at least that's what I like to believe, I have had a normal life, a normal beautiful life, wrapped up with wonderful memories. I can do just fine with the life I have got. But no! things had to be a little different. Take music for instance, can you find anyone in this world who doesn't appreciate music? hard to find, I know. You listen to music, you find a track that you really like, and it becomes a part of your life for a few days. This much I can afford..but I cant understand why do I have to be transported to a new world suddenly, all because of some music, a particular sentence in a book, a long forgotten picture, an abandoned house, early mornings [ that is when i am awake the whole night], RAIN, even an advertisement! That is when I imagine, with no end to it. it is surreal.. and when I am there, I have no spiritual connection with anyone...and trust me, it is scary. It also makes me think of it as a reason for my lack of connection with most people. Why is spiritual connection so damn important for me?? Why can't I be satisfied with the normal things, like flowers, money, movies, music, people? Instead I get caught up in the scent of a flower, the worth of money, the thought behind a movie, the soul of the music and the emotions of people. It is so hard to come back from there. I don't know, maybe i need to 'grow up' a lot more. I sincerely wish it is the reason behind this.. and I grow up and out of this.

Triumph

4 months of questioning myself...explaining myself...watching the cocoon being pealed off...falling asleep on my birthday with no one to wake me up..waiting to be hugged..being angry at myself for being sensitive..could never shed a single tear then...too much pride. Today I didn't stop them...they spoke of relief and success.





p.s : to all the losers..thanks for trying to mess up my life..hope u r successful in messing up urs.

Holding back the deluge..waiting for the brave..

The sky, though holding in his arms
his bride, the earth
is ever immensely away.


- Tagore

I AM DUMB..I REALLY AM...I AM JUST PLAIN DUMB..I AM DUMB.YES I AM.