Holding back the deluge..waiting for the brave..

The sky, though holding in his arms
his bride, the earth
is ever immensely away.


- Tagore

I AM DUMB..I REALLY AM...I AM JUST PLAIN DUMB..I AM DUMB.YES I AM.

Please hug me once and tell me it's ok to b a dreamer...

'cheap' thrills

1. Watching airplanes go by....there is something about them..to watch them go far away...[sigh]
2. The storm just before it rains...love them.
3. The freedom to have tea just about anywhere!!
4. The feeling 'i have to watch this movie right now' and actually watching it no matter what is the time [ for that u need to have a computer in your room]
5. Liking someone and keeping it a secret.
6. Giving in to sadness, absorb the negativity all around you, and just let go, cry, sulk... trust me after a while you will feel that it's not worth it. There in lies the thrill.
7. Going through various profiles in orkut and bumping into the profile of a distant classmate, known by face, and then realising how lives change and we keep changing.
8. The day after the exam ends, waking up, not to an alarm clock!
9. Receiving a letter from your best friend.
10. The signs from above, that we get every now and then, that tell us, that we are on the right track...that, feels like heaven.

Wanted to write something, badly needed to write down my feelings but somehow cannot. I guess it is too personal, so personal that i cannot bear the thought of others reading it. Reading is still fine, maybe. I am afraid they might analyze it in their own way and jump into conclusions. I really don't know. But the fact is, i couldn't write. But i want to write, to say things, out loud. But cannot. I have to wait. I have to and I will...I am sure i can.

smething special

today we hd freshers welcome in colg...since we r the final yr students, i went with my friends to grace the occassion. the whole thing was ok..nothing great but a good effort nonetheless! and to our surprise..there were extra food packets left which the juniors gave to us. now thats not the reason m writing this blog! well these food packets hd no spoon..and ishani...my friend hd brot tiffin with her which was done n over with long time back..so she hd her spoon. now there were 4 pkts and one spoon. so we took turns with the spoon and thats how we ate it. i wud hv two spoonfuls and then ishani n then nilanjana n then maybe paulami and again in sme other order...till we were done. i mean i know they dint realise this..but there was smething extremely special abt the whole thing..if there is one spoon and 4 pkts...as if there is just no other option but to share it..it came so naturally to them. they r blessed souls..my favs :) i was touched today.